Lorenz L. Campos

“If you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always gotten.”

love, live life, learn, proceed and progress.

I always wondered how it was like to live a balanced life. Having the schedule to fit everything.. everyone. It's not so easy. A lot of sarcrifices really.

- Just a thought.

So this is the difference between how I feel and what is real.

( I know I never really treated this like a journal, but here's more than just a couple of sentences for an entry)



A relationship is suppose to bring the best out of each other. Even though we didn't make it, your still the best, and I mean it. I thank God every night for putting you in my life, and I ask him to always watch over you and your family. I'm confident that you'll make it. I'll always love you because you were more than just my girlfriend. And even though our relationship was bittersweet, and we hated each other half the time... The other half was a privilege. We were right Caryn, love is a privilege. And you showed me just that. I don't need to prove it to anyone. As long as we both know. Thanks, again. Keep in touch.

On another note:
It's crazy how much can change in a week. I mean, one moment your appreciating your blessings, and then the next, your left questioning how something so good can turn out so bad.
These two months have been a year's worth of lessons for me. And to be honest, it's been all about learning who I am. I guess those long bus rides to get to work has really got me soul-searching. So there's one benefit for still not getting that G1, lol. Anyways, I felt like these two months have put my life on hold, for real. I wasn't making progress in anything. I stopped doing what I love, and my life fell into a routine. It really does take a whole lot to know what it means to "live your life one day at a time." But through it all I just wanna thank my friends for taking care of me, you guys are the "chosen few" for a reason, and you remind me why everytime. You guys showed me that in time, everything will be okay-- and even though i didn't believe you then, I believe you now. But most of all, I want to thank God, I really felt like you were with me this whole time. Thank you for keeping me together, because even though I had my friends to give me advice and comfort, in the end, it was all up to me and how I was going to push myself out of it. I feel like I really chose the right month to start over. I can smell it in the fresh spring air. I feel brand new. Here I go.